The doctors tell us that my sister Lori and I both have retina degeneration, possibly caused by the scarlet fever. It’s starting from the center of our vision and working its way to the sides. Now I have a blind dark spot in front and can only see a blur from the corners of my eyes. My fear mixes with grief as I mourn my ruined life. I get angry with God for denying my prayer. “Why does it have to be my eyes?” I can’t help focusing on all my bad options. Deaf is scary but at least I’d be able to see the bad guys coming. But how can I live not able to see? No more drawing and painting. No more playgrounds. No more “Maverick” or any TV show or movies. No driving. No girlfriend – what girl will ever want to be with me?” I hate these thoughts but I can’t turn them off!